it's not a simple thing~

Do you really know who you are?
For me, No. i dont..

There's no one that actually know and understand me...
even myself can hardly understand myself..
my thought..my action..everything..
it is the hardest part for me...

Misunderstood by someone..
not being trusted..
betrayed...lies....secrets
many and many...
i hate stuff like that!..
(maybe is just my illusion, but i truly felt something)

I've been face the world with my heart..
but the world just gave me punch and wound and hurt..
it's pain..and sad..
i don't want anything..
i just want a true heart..
a heart that open to me and trusted me..
no secrets..

I know sometimes secrets is really kind of very private and personal..
but why can you told everyone else but not me??
it's a knife when you say "it's kind of private and personal..and it's none of your business!"
I know you don't believe in me...
but cant you just at least pretend that there's no secrets between you and me?..

maybe you just don't know my feelings.
I don't blame you..really..
(maybe i should blame myself as i made you feel like i cant be trusted..)
but i'm just disappointed..
Why dont you just talk to me??
Am I really that cannot be trusted??
I dont force you to tell me anything...or have any action...
I just hope you can just care about my feelings..
and please..dont let me know whatever secrets that you have with others...

Believe or not.
I am not that strong..
sometimes...i just have the willing to cry out...
and sometimes the tears is true..
but indeed..
I am not the kind of person that easily burst into tears..

Haha....
I think i am more suitable and pretty in smile~~ ^.^
don't think about this stuff again..
I just need to look forward..right?
there's nothing that can beat me down.
Again..the camera is ready!!!
SAY CHEEEESSSEEE!!!!!
^.^
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Okay...
That's all right..
I've feel better now..after speak out my feelings...
ermmm....
i know i've said somthing about writing this stuff is kind of stupid or idiot..
but this is the only way to speak out..
I'm so sorry...if i made you feeling uncomfortable...
please forgive me...
for what i've done that make one's sad...
Sorry~~~




Ps: pls dont mention this again ok??
      my god..arrhhhh..i am now kind of regret to post this post...~ =.=